There needs to be a code word or something that means “my brain is fighting me every step of the way today and I feel like I’m going to vibrate out of my skin, so I need you to forgive everything and go slowly and speak softly and lower your expectations.” And then we could all just be like, “I know I said we could go to a movie tonight but… tangerines.” And the other person would nod and squeeze your elbow or rub your head and you wouldn’t feel like a failure.
I don’t know where I am going to rest my head tonight so I won’t promise that I’ll speak to you today. But if I ever find another place, a better time, for that moment I was never what I am.
In between the lines is the only place you’ll find what you’re missing but you didn’t know was there. So, when I say goodbye, you must do your best to try and forgive me this weakness.